I destroy my body in order to sooth my mind.
Today I’m going to practice observing the moments instead of judging the moments. I’m going to try and let the things that happen, happen. Nothing is good. Nothing is bad. Letting it all just flow as is. I’ll let you know how it goes.
I remained at peace for most of the day. I did get mad at my boyfriend for a bit because he did something I didn’t want him to. I attempted practicing non judgement. I reminded myself, out loud, that I was only angry because he didn’t follow the script I had in my head. We talked through it and we both apologized. I had felt he was only looking after his cravings and not thinking about what I would or wouldn’t want. He agreed and now it’s over. Guess we’ll see how this plays out in the future.